sighs i always get so depressed before a call... not just the day before... but the entire week! esp if its a sunday call... i hate it+++ emo+++

haha i have the funkiest & craziest team tis mth... cant imagine how we can bitch so much! 10h/d X 5days a week lol. but somethings are them true sia

meddie world is realli too small to do anithing or u'll be the butt of all gossip the next week or even the nxt dae!

darn haha

soo cute :)))

Such is the life of a HO... at least GM letz u off at bout 6

a good mouth

4 hands &

10 feet

being a good postman & knowing who to refer to ...

post 6pm i am bored ... dunno wad im doin...

realli dun feel lyke studyin animore oh plz im not a student le

itz been a long time since comin here...

haha i feel OLD among the sudents ;p

i HATE my new team

fine HOs are useless idiots...not meant to be seen or heard!

you are an OCD +++

so everyone has to follow to be ur OCD ways of scribing in the case files...

u dun even noe your patients well... & act as if u freaking noe everthing

& when i try to bring up some OBVIOUS mistake of yours... u ignore it

DUMB ... who gives meropenam + vanc to PANSENITIVE pseudomonas UTI....

hahahahahahaha dumb

sucker to A class pts

i hate this month!

i want to take leave

a waste of my time & brain space...

stop freaking critisizing ppl's handwriting & filing when you dun even mangae your pts properly irritating

somtimes i wonder...

spend my daes taking care of others... ppl whom i dun noe or will ever noe...

juz a fleeting transient meet... yet i spend all my time & energy on them...

but when someone who matters needs your care... u juz cant or werent dere

... for the 101 reasons... sigh

sigh after all these months i still havent got used to call...

even thou each time i tell myself to keep calm & be nice... by the time it hits 3am i can feel my BP rise... but i juz cant show it

oh wellz life is so fickle... someone juz got into an RTA...but yeah wonders wad that person was doing hurhur maybe drink driving or some crawp? i wld like to noe ya rite

dear Lord... i need your help... please give me the strength to survive this comin month...
going to a strange new hosp with so many pts & X on team who is noctorious for am rounds tyl 130pm... & pm rounds at 2... sighs only human

ggxx send patient up faster pls... our dear slapping- mitten auntie is back :)
my 2nd last call... sads i am gonna miss it here soooooooo much

i've been bloggin really frequently these daes i realise.... ;p

haha i've juz been reading my posts 2 mts ago...

itz funny how i hated renal at da start & now i luv it to da max ;p

life's funny & itz bout adapting :)

insecurity... its a gnawing feeling...

i am happy & contented where i am...

but its gonna change V soon...

pluz that smtk else... sigh...

i am on leave... lazing around in starbucks with a cuppa coffee... & my bk ... as usu ;(
i wonder when tis can change to lazin ard wif a magazine or smtk else ... ;p
hopefully in 8 yrs or lessssssssss pls
how nice it wld be to be a con wif no more complusory examz eww

no more bowling todae or i wun be able to get of bed cm

I'm a happy contented gal... i lyke my work & i get time to play too...
juz that everione else is busy at work hur...a wee bit of studyin a dae to tickle da mind
juz oni 1 thing tts ggrr perfectly irritating...

today is leave dae :)
i enjoyed it...even in Spore :)
went bowling...den dinner at glasshouse wif a live band...& a nice slow jog to end da nite
what a dae

someone mentioned bout the history of chris medina's what r words at dinner... so nice!

Yay tdy i successfully put in fem line no 2!
haha lots of oral instuctions from george my MO & da nurse lolz
bet dey muz haf had a heart attack in hoping i dun kill da pt or them 1st grinz
but YES i did it ;p
happiness..... putting in lines makes my dae

I hate unmotivated ppl.......... ha

my wish for tis national day is to watch fireworks live...
zh joel & kenny is leaving tml.......
soon it'll be my turn to sae gdbye to ktph...
nvr to return... of course i wish i could... but for stupid $$$ & position & training in tis nvr ending rat race... i dun tink it'll eva happen... hurhur

treasure my last daes...

lol i tink i'm nutz... i actually find doing my renal daily renal list therapeutic.....
i actually like ward rounds erm.... gulpz hahaha... running around the stairs/fighting for other teams & nurses for the files & cows has become part of the way to start my day ggxx ;p
i'm mad but i like it ;p

sometime happy yet sometimes sad...
wonders if i shud try so hard for things that can go both ways... sigh

i gotta rant to keep my BP in check...
had an extremely stressful sat round
sat rounds r bad to start with... coz 1 HO to 2 blocks...not to mention the wierd & wonderful blue letter referrals on a sat
den tdy was X consultant rounding...ggxx practically running on rounds up & down da stairs
hur i prerounded all da pts at HD centre... & instead of ok or at least a tks... it was oh why u rounded all da stable pts... not worth it...hur so HD patient no need to round meh? ha wait tyl some BP goes gg

den comes da PD pts...how wld a HO noe wad to do...low BP? hold off rite? ha no...newest orders is to continue...den sian asked da irritating nurses to PREPARE the adrenaline...comes to da ward 1/2h lata if consultant... everything NOT dere... am i supposed to go to the prep cupboard & take that vial of adrenaline MYSELF during rounds?

den our new blue letter who was passed to mi lyke 5mins ago? how am i miraculously supposed to examine the exit site when i havent even touched da file? how i noe got pus dere... den da nurses supposed to freakin bring the patient down for HD STAT...patient wif exit site infxn gg for US abd? wad for hur? use ur brains la!!! Had to call da ward myself bring da pt down ggxx

phew

at the end of every month i feel so sad... juz when u get so used to ur comfort zone & ur team (like it or hate it...so far is alwayz like it mostly :p) its time to MOVE!

Today is Dr LimEK's last dae... i am sooo sad...
He's the only reg i'd eva dare & have only dared to call at 3am when he's not on call...
such a friendly smilely & extremely nice teddy bear... even if he oni slept at 2am trying to save us juniors from doing a presentation
Always bearing da madness from our 2 bosses who dun usu agree on things or haf definitely diff views on most things...
Sigh bye dr lim... hope nxt time if i can do renal i can be as good as him in lines & everthing else

tis wk has been a busy wk full of tests & courses... now its finally time to wind down & prepare for yet another wk...
After today... again my decision has been challenged...
I like to do lines / needles and play wif stuff that is no brainer... or at least zap less of ur brains
Setting lines makes my dae...
so dr loh said... u want smtk? muz make it happen...
u wanna work under da shen of Azxxx? ...& he even offered to get mi a place
i shoud've taken da offer... but here im stuck in renal life for da nxt 2 months
sigh

being in renal feels lyke belonging to nowhere...
everidae i report to renal centre to pts i dun noe or noe via dialysis charts...
no nice aunty/uncle/family to sae hi... no nice nurses ard...
i wish i were back at ward 76
so empty :(

hi its 1st dae of renal...
i dun like it here...
every pt is Mr X with
1. ESRF 2' to DM/HTN
2. HD 135 or 246, via ________ site
3. dry wt, UF,
4. Hep B Hep C HIV status
5. dialysis cx eg hypoTN..., other cx esp anaemia +++

currently in here for sepsis or social issues until proven otherwise.
dialysis bloods
Ca Mg PO4, PTH, anaemia panel 1/11, bld c/s coz of sepsis, vanco trough... KIV dialysis Abx

i am nothing but a scribe... da bosses dun talk to u much and da situation is just sooo tense between da bosses during rounds i tremble. I am not allowed to see even da blue letters alone... feel so useless sigh

2 months of tis... gg

by 5pm i was literally jumped when someone said dere's a DKA case in da wards... almost felt like saying can i help u clerk & do da abg plzzz,

i miss 76 sooosoooo much....
i miss having patients under my care from 7am to 5pm everidae instead of juz seeing em for 5 mins... it becomes the patient in ward __ bed__ for HD 135/246... yikes

goodbye ward 76...

today as i stood at the door i realised how much i'm gonna miss my ward 76... my 1st ward i've eva worked in....
neva again to come in at 7 am to the peace & quiet of the ward before the mayhem of morning rounds start...
i luv my team but most of all my nurses & psa who will always make my dae... cleaning up & doing things they arent even supposed to do...
now juz as i get the hang of things, i will be thrown out of my comfort zone to no man's land of renal...
i haf neva seen dialysis being done in my entire med sch dae, much less writeup a renal prescription tml... ggxx this is gonna be a steep learning curve + physical learning curve as i comb thru da entire hosp... literally all 3 towers daily
dear Lord pls help mi survive :)

some diseases are a stigmata... i was realli scared when i had 2 of em in my care...
then tdy an LP had to done... but its on one of such ....
setting plug was alr caused dread & fear.... but LP itz 10 X worse... maybe 3X needle length & size & gdness noes infectivy
but its my 1st & probable oni chance in a long time....
okie i chose to do it :)... den aft that came the need for many pokes on Mr X in just 1 afternoon.... now i have gotten over da fear... juz haf to b careful...

what dad said its realli true... since im here alr just enjoy it & do it well :)

Hihi i've juz started work... somewhere into my 1st month.
Im styl blur but i luv my MOs and most of my team n ward nurses :) sooo blessed to be at ktph.
I luv my day work and my long stayer patients :)
My fellow IM residents & HOs... i wish i could be here for da rest of HO ship... but somedae i'll haf to be back at TTSH...
Okie gg for call again cm.... at least its MO2.