Itz been 2 weeks (& 1 float) since everything crashed...my dreams, my hopes, my life...

I am so grateful for my family and friends who have stood by me throughout this lonliest time...
Slowly i am picking up the mess & broken pieces...trying to find a new meaning to life...
Itz darn hard to be alone, standing on your 2 own feet after all these years with no one to share your day with & no weekends to look forward to, trying to keep busy & put on a smile while u cry inside.
Itz a big lie that time heals...the big hole thats left behind...hopefull until it gets filled up again...someday...

sighs i always get so depressed before a call... not just the day before... but the entire week! esp if its a sunday call... i hate it+++ emo+++

haha i have the funkiest & craziest team tis mth... cant imagine how we can bitch so much! 10h/d X 5days a week lol. but somethings are them true sia

meddie world is realli too small to do anithing or u'll be the butt of all gossip the next week or even the nxt dae!

darn haha

soo cute :)))

Such is the life of a HO... at least GM letz u off at bout 6

a good mouth

4 hands &

10 feet

being a good postman & knowing who to refer to ...

post 6pm i am bored ... dunno wad im doin...

realli dun feel lyke studyin animore oh plz im not a student le

itz been a long time since comin here...

haha i feel OLD among the sudents ;p

i HATE my new team

fine HOs are useless idiots...not meant to be seen or heard!

you are an OCD +++

so everyone has to follow to be ur OCD ways of scribing in the case files...

u dun even noe your patients well... & act as if u freaking noe everthing

& when i try to bring up some OBVIOUS mistake of yours... u ignore it

DUMB ... who gives meropenam + vanc to PANSENITIVE pseudomonas UTI....

hahahahahahaha dumb

sucker to A class pts

i hate this month!

i want to take leave

a waste of my time & brain space...

stop freaking critisizing ppl's handwriting & filing when you dun even mangae your pts properly irritating

somtimes i wonder...

spend my daes taking care of others... ppl whom i dun noe or will ever noe...

juz a fleeting transient meet... yet i spend all my time & energy on them...

but when someone who matters needs your care... u juz cant or werent dere

... for the 101 reasons... sigh

sigh after all these months i still havent got used to call...

even thou each time i tell myself to keep calm & be nice... by the time it hits 3am i can feel my BP rise... but i juz cant show it

oh wellz life is so fickle... someone juz got into an RTA...but yeah wonders wad that person was doing hurhur maybe drink driving or some crawp? i wld like to noe ya rite

dear Lord... i need your help... please give me the strength to survive this comin month...
going to a strange new hosp with so many pts & X on team who is noctorious for am rounds tyl 130pm... & pm rounds at 2... sighs only human

ggxx send patient up faster pls... our dear slapping- mitten auntie is back :)
my 2nd last call... sads i am gonna miss it here soooooooo much

i've been bloggin really frequently these daes i realise.... ;p

haha i've juz been reading my posts 2 mts ago...

itz funny how i hated renal at da start & now i luv it to da max ;p

life's funny & itz bout adapting :)

insecurity... its a gnawing feeling...

i am happy & contented where i am...

but its gonna change V soon...

pluz that smtk else... sigh...

i am on leave... lazing around in starbucks with a cuppa coffee... & my bk ... as usu ;(
i wonder when tis can change to lazin ard wif a magazine or smtk else ... ;p
hopefully in 8 yrs or lessssssssss pls
how nice it wld be to be a con wif no more complusory examz eww

no more bowling todae or i wun be able to get of bed cm

I'm a happy contented gal... i lyke my work & i get time to play too...
juz that everione else is busy at work hur...a wee bit of studyin a dae to tickle da mind
juz oni 1 thing tts ggrr perfectly irritating...

today is leave dae :)
i enjoyed it...even in Spore :)
went bowling...den dinner at glasshouse wif a live band...& a nice slow jog to end da nite
what a dae

someone mentioned bout the history of chris medina's what r words at dinner... so nice!

Yay tdy i successfully put in fem line no 2!
haha lots of oral instuctions from george my MO & da nurse lolz
bet dey muz haf had a heart attack in hoping i dun kill da pt or them 1st grinz
but YES i did it ;p
happiness..... putting in lines makes my dae

I hate unmotivated ppl.......... ha

my wish for tis national day is to watch fireworks live...
zh joel & kenny is leaving tml.......
soon it'll be my turn to sae gdbye to ktph...
nvr to return... of course i wish i could... but for stupid $$$ & position & training in tis nvr ending rat race... i dun tink it'll eva happen... hurhur

treasure my last daes...

lol i tink i'm nutz... i actually find doing my renal daily renal list therapeutic.....
i actually like ward rounds erm.... gulpz hahaha... running around the stairs/fighting for other teams & nurses for the files & cows has become part of the way to start my day ggxx ;p
i'm mad but i like it ;p