tis wk has been a busy wk full of tests & courses... now its finally time to wind down & prepare for yet another wk...
After today... again my decision has been challenged...
I like to do lines / needles and play wif stuff that is no brainer... or at least zap less of ur brains
Setting lines makes my dae...
so dr loh said... u want smtk? muz make it happen...
u wanna work under da shen of Azxxx? ...& he even offered to get mi a place
i shoud've taken da offer... but here im stuck in renal life for da nxt 2 months
sigh

being in renal feels lyke belonging to nowhere...
everidae i report to renal centre to pts i dun noe or noe via dialysis charts...
no nice aunty/uncle/family to sae hi... no nice nurses ard...
i wish i were back at ward 76
so empty :(

hi its 1st dae of renal...
i dun like it here...
every pt is Mr X with
1. ESRF 2' to DM/HTN
2. HD 135 or 246, via ________ site
3. dry wt, UF,
4. Hep B Hep C HIV status
5. dialysis cx eg hypoTN..., other cx esp anaemia +++

currently in here for sepsis or social issues until proven otherwise.
dialysis bloods
Ca Mg PO4, PTH, anaemia panel 1/11, bld c/s coz of sepsis, vanco trough... KIV dialysis Abx

i am nothing but a scribe... da bosses dun talk to u much and da situation is just sooo tense between da bosses during rounds i tremble. I am not allowed to see even da blue letters alone... feel so useless sigh

2 months of tis... gg

by 5pm i was literally jumped when someone said dere's a DKA case in da wards... almost felt like saying can i help u clerk & do da abg plzzz,

i miss 76 sooosoooo much....
i miss having patients under my care from 7am to 5pm everidae instead of juz seeing em for 5 mins... it becomes the patient in ward __ bed__ for HD 135/246... yikes

goodbye ward 76...

today as i stood at the door i realised how much i'm gonna miss my ward 76... my 1st ward i've eva worked in....
neva again to come in at 7 am to the peace & quiet of the ward before the mayhem of morning rounds start...
i luv my team but most of all my nurses & psa who will always make my dae... cleaning up & doing things they arent even supposed to do...
now juz as i get the hang of things, i will be thrown out of my comfort zone to no man's land of renal...
i haf neva seen dialysis being done in my entire med sch dae, much less writeup a renal prescription tml... ggxx this is gonna be a steep learning curve + physical learning curve as i comb thru da entire hosp... literally all 3 towers daily
dear Lord pls help mi survive :)

some diseases are a stigmata... i was realli scared when i had 2 of em in my care...
then tdy an LP had to done... but its on one of such ....
setting plug was alr caused dread & fear.... but LP itz 10 X worse... maybe 3X needle length & size & gdness noes infectivy
but its my 1st & probable oni chance in a long time....
okie i chose to do it :)... den aft that came the need for many pokes on Mr X in just 1 afternoon.... now i have gotten over da fear... juz haf to b careful...

what dad said its realli true... since im here alr just enjoy it & do it well :)

Hihi i've juz started work... somewhere into my 1st month.
Im styl blur but i luv my MOs and most of my team n ward nurses :) sooo blessed to be at ktph.
I luv my day work and my long stayer patients :)
My fellow IM residents & HOs... i wish i could be here for da rest of HO ship... but somedae i'll haf to be back at TTSH...
Okie gg for call again cm.... at least its MO2.